Sarah Has Been On Both Sides Of The Abortionist’s Table. Here’s What She Wants You To Know

As the country awaits the Supreme Court’s decision on the Mississippi law banning abortions after babies are 15 weeks old in Dobbs v. Jackson, the fate of thousands of unborn babies lies in the hands of these justices. Sarah Eubanks knows just what horrors await those unborn children if the court doesn’t recognize their right to live.

Eubanks, who now advocates for the pro-life movement, worked in the “Ladies Center,” an abortion facility in Mobile, Ala. After witnessing the murder of thousands of unborn children and enduring the trauma of her own abortion, Eubanks decided to spend the rest of her life telling the world about the horrifying secrets of the industry, as well as the trauma she’s experienced.

Inside the Baby-Killing Business

During her time at the abortion center, Eubanks worked in the “POC” room. “POC” stands for “Products of Conception”: the pro-choice way of sugar-coating what was actually a “baby morgue.”

Eubanks would pick out a baby’s body parts from the suction machine and put the limbs back together, “like a puzzle.” Once she would piece the spine, skull, and arms together, she would determine whether all of the child’s body was out of the mother. 

“When you get trained to do that, that means you really know your stuff,” she explained. “And that you’re good and trustworthy and dependable that now you’re being promoted, in a sense, and we’re gonna give you this honor of doing this horrific task.” 

While the task of putting these babies back together was deemed a “badge of honor,” Eubanks would go home and wash baby blood off her hands. And it wasn’t just the blood of a few babies; thousands of children were massacred in these facilities. 

During her time there, Eubanks says she assisted in the abortions of almost 5,000 mothers. The actual number of children aborted was more than that; the abortionist would never tell the woman whether she was pregnant with one, two, or three babies. Most women walked out assuming they had been pregnant with one child when many were carrying twins or even triplets. 

To make matters worse, the abortion center would not tell the mothers if they were past 14 weeks. While the policy at the center was that abortions past 14 weeks would not be performed, their abortionists still killed fetuses far past this mark, Eubanks said. Before the procedure, a pelvic examination was performed, and the abortionist would be able to tell how far along the pregnancy was.

“I do remember a few times like seeing a doctor’s face kind of like, you know something’s off here, but they still would go ahead and do the procedure,” Eubanks said. “Looking back, I do think that maybe those were the ones that were further along.” 

Regardless, the abortionists would follow through with the abortion and never tell the mothers how far along they really were, if they were pregnant with more than one child, or even the baby’s sex, she added.

While the abortion center would never tell the mothers this information, many of the workers assumed women would just carry on with their lives after their abortion. In reality, many women walked out of the office regretting their decision and were traumatized by the procedure. 

Taking Advantage of Desperate Women

Perhaps the most gutwrenching vision Eubanks recalled seeing at the abortion center was the case of a 12-year-old girl who was brought in by her grandmother. By the girl’s hysteria, it was clear that she did not understand what was going on. 

“I remember that look on her face that she just didn’t understand what was going on. She didn’t want to be there,” Eubanks said. “She started moving around and the doctor said, ‘You need to hold her down.’ I did put my hands on her and said ‘You have to settle down, you gotta be still, you’re gonna hurt yourself. You have to be still.’ And within an instant, she pushed her feet out of the stirrups and started running down the hall with the speculum in her vagina with blood running down her legs.” 

“The doctor said, ‘I’m not touching this,’” recalled Eubanks. “She was that upset. She just didn’t want to be there. She was screaming. She was out of control. And even the administrators were like, ‘She’s gotta go. She’s just got to go.’”

This young girl was just one of many patients who did not understand what was going on and was pressured to follow through with the abortion. Many women got cold feet after entering the building and tried to back out at the last minute but were told it was too late, Eubanks recalled.

Women were told, “We’re not going to give a refund. You’re already here. It is what it is,” she said. 

This repeated lie that there were no other options caused the deaths of many unborn children. If the abortion facility had been honest about other options, such as adoption, less blood would have been spilled. Instead, these women were lied to and just handed birth control when they left.  

“You don’t give them options in the clinic,” said Eubanks. “The only options that we gave the patients were ‘What kind of birth control pills do you want to take home?’ Those are the only options. We didn’t ever talk about adoption and keeping the baby. We never talked about that.” 

By just handing out birth control and not educating these women on their options, the facility made many patients believe abortion was the only solution and that they could come back to get another abortion when they got pregnant again, she said.

“[Patients were never told] that this is killing your child, that this is not the solution,” Eubanks said.

Eubanks recalled a woman who came in for her 12th abortion. Every time she came in, she cried. And every time, the abortion center never bothered to educate her on how to avoid getting pregnant in the first place. 

“I remember she was laying on the table crying because it was so painful. And I was like, how many times have you been through this? She was crying before each one. On her records, it showed that she had had 12 abortions.”

The issues at stake in Dobbs are far more than political ones, Eubanks noted. “This isn’t political. This is heart. When your heart changes on abortion, that’s when true change happens.” 

Sarah’s Own Story

Eubanks had an abortion when she was 19, believing it was her only option and that it would spare her family embarrassment. But once the procedure started, she knew she had made a mistake. 

“The suction piece of hard plastic went in, and when, the second I felt my baby being ripped out of my womb, I knew I had made a mistake,” she recalled. “I felt it. And I laid on the table crying in solid tears. [People] don’t talk about the sadness, the hurt.”

“When I came out, I was just very stoic, very solemn. I remember going to the bathroom and throwing up, and I sat on the floor next to the toilet, just crying my eyes out,” she added. “You can’t grieve an abortion. It’s not right because it’s your choice. You chose this.”

Twelve years after her abortion, Eubanks and her husband tried to get pregnant, to no avail. Told by her doctor that they had found scar tissue in her uterus, she believes her abortion caused her infertility.

Only in recent years did Eubanks tell her family about her abortion. When she finally told her mother about her “secret,” that she had had an abortion in 1987, she was surprised by her mother’s response.

“I went over to her house because I wanted to talk to her. And I said, ‘I just want to tell you that in 1987, I had an abortion.’” 

“I know,” said her mother. “That’s when you changed.” 

If the Supreme Court strikes down Mississippi’s ban on abortion and others like it, millions of unborn children will be sacrificed to the lie that it’s empowering for women to abort their children. In reality, killing an unborn child brings nothing but trauma, guilt, and heartbreak. Not only can the Supreme Court save the lives of millions of unborn children, but the lives of so many women may be salvaged too.

Alasdaire Fleitas is an intern at The Federalist and a student at Trinity College in Hartford, Connecticut, where she studies psychology and religious studies.

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